The Most Wonderful Love Story I've ever Read!

I was searching the material for my school task actually, when I suddenly found storyofmylifetheblog.blogspot.com, and read the 'love story' part. It was definitely took my time for a while, but it inspired me sooo much. The point I got was, what you need is not a perfect relationship, with a 'fairytale-like' boy, candle light dinner, romantic poems or those shit things, but what you need actually was destined by God, so just be thankful for what you have now. It could comes from an unexpected things. You might have a bad relationship with your boy now, but believe me, miracles would come in the right time, as Jenni's. Enjoy reading the story!


The Most Wonderful Love Story I've ever Read!

The Remorse

Could you come back?

All those words you said

All those jokes we've laughed about

All those togetherness we've made

All those time we've spent

Could it back again?

The argue we've created

The fight we've sparked

The mocks we've put each other

The silence we've made

Could it back again?

People talks about it

People talks made us far apart

People talks turned our way

People talks broke us and ours

Can it all be fixed?

Have you ever think about me?

As the way I'm thinking about you all my time?

Are you feel the same?

As the way I feel the love in you?

When the game comes

Every single part of our secret discovered

It supposed to be good

But it ends with a sad-ending

Is it cause all of those things?

May you know my regrets

May you know it all

May you know it's still the same

Hopefully you know there's nothing change

We are friend.

It DOESN'T mean that we always have to share every single part of secret each other. Sometimes we have to HIDE some parts of our SECRETS in order to AVOID the conflict.

Well, don't BLAME me if there's something of me that you don't know. 'Cause I'm definitely SURE that it's something you don't want to TALK about.

So please, for this time, STOP ASKING.

Right there.

Right over there.

We used to spend time wastefully.

Laughing, singing, kissing.

All those things we did.

Now, it is just an empty barley field.

With thousands of memories buried here.

You gone, as soon as the sky turns dark.

And it's disappear as soon as the rain goes down.

Flower

Jokes. Roses. Laughs. And those things you put on me.

We laugh. We mocking. We seems like it is just the way the two of us make friends.

But it is not. It is more. It is not just a feeling that suddenly floated up when the teacher's come.

NO. I just can't say exactly what it is. You just have to know that it is NOT an ordinary feeling.


Anyway, I can't do anything. You didn't give any chance for it, although you didn't say it for sure. Eyes don't tell lies. So, what should I do?


Hell yeah, I just can waiting. Please, don't make this wait become longer and longer.
'Cause a falling leaf finally be nothing if it is not picked up by someone for sticked it in the book.

The way she looked says something different.

It's more than just a laugh or even a joke.

But he can't do anything with it.

'Cause what he has done,

left a big injury in her heart.

And when she passed through,

he saw his little pretty girl,

leaned her heart upon other man's shoulder,

loving him as much as she was did when she was his.

New Target : International Relationship

"Kenapa HI? Kamu mau hidup gak menetap, di negeri orang, jauh dari keluarga, gak ada peluang kerja di dalam negeri?"-One of family.

Well, what she said is right. If I take the international relationship program, I'll be homeless, far away from family, and hardly get a job in Indonesia.

Now, how about making Indonesia better than before?

For me, personally, I don't want to have a job just for earn the wealth. Wealth means nothing if it is not perceived benefits for others. I want a job that would make Indonesia better than before. And I just thought that I'm in love in writing, speaking, and arguing. Why don't I take the HI?

HI (Hubungan International) is made for preparing the youth to be a good diplomat that would be represented his/her nation in international politic that indirectly will help Indonesia to be better than before. I just fall in love to see the diplomats are wearing their coats and met the other diplomats from around the world to make deal about their country. Oh My God, I hope I'll be the next diplomat of Indonesia. Amiin.

And now on, I'll try to learn more about it and reach it as what it supposed to be. Wish I'll be there. God.

Still Stuck : The Internal Conflict

I'm still stuck in the state that I didn't even know what it is called.
It's getting worse by mom that against me harshly.
God, what should I do now?

Selalu Begini : Maju Salah, Mundur Salah.

Yeah, it is always been like this.
Stuck in the state that I didn't even know what it is called.
You know, it sucks.


I don't mean that I don't grateful with what I got, but it is just the same with the failure.
Oh my God, does everything have to be this hard?


The password of my destiny is YES, but what I got is AFS.
How can I face it?
How can I pay for it?
How can make my dream will still exist?


I'm so grateful to God for what I got, but I don't know how to still be here.
Still being in the state that I didn't even know what it is called.

Being a Senior : Leaving Those Absurd Memories

Yeah, being thousands miles from home give me more time to re-think about what I have done and what I haven't. I just thought that it must be better if I won the chemistry olympiad. It must be better if I've got more diligent in working the tasks. It must be better if I got the most outstanding degree. It must be better if I could mind my words. It must be better if I'm not hurting someone's heart. It must be better if blablablablabla. Yeah, blablablablabla. And blablablablabla.



But when I think about it once again, I realized that if it wasn't like how it was, it was and it is NOT my life. I meant, if I wasn't weird, yeah, just used that word, probably I couldn't got many friend like now. Maybe, if I just studying all day long, there's a possibility that I'll get mad. And maybe, if I didn't make mistake, I don't know how the mistake effects the things. Yeah, everything has a reason to happened.


Being with X.Euro gives me all those thing that matured me, whether it's hurt. And although we had mocking each other, being unsolid, and didn't care enough of each other, it is still had the good side. There, I knew that everyone must has two side in his/her personality. And we can't deny it. We just can understanding it and act as it should be. Yeah, there's nothing right, there's nothing wrong, there's just different.


Ramadhan have come. Now, for all my mistake, it's time for saying :

A Letter To God

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From the start, O Lord God,
You held me close when I was lost
And believed in me beyond
A shadow of a doubt.

I knew from the beginning,
My life was a wonderful blessing.
I wasn’t supposed to ask You why
But you helped me to live
My life every day.

O Lord God, The Most Powerful,
Thank you for everything and for all
The things that are bright and beautiful.
I love you from the deepest of my heart
And I promise my love for you
Will never be apart.
~ Alon Calinao Dy

The Remorse Poem

Could you come back?


All those words you said
All those jokes we've laughed about
All those togetherness we've made
All those time we've spent
Could it back again?


The argue we've created
The fight we've sparked
The mocks we've putted each other
The silence we've made
Could it back again?


People talks about it
People talks made us far apart
People talks turned our way
People talks broke us and ours
Can it all be fix?


Are you thinking about me in your everyday life?
As the way I'm thinking about you all my time?
Are you feel the same?
As the way I feel the love in you?


When the game comes
Every single part of our secret discovered
It supposed to be good
But it ends with a sad-ending
Is it cause all of those things?


May you know my regrets
May you know it all
May you know it still the same
Hopefully you know there's nothing change

Team 7: Success All But One

Sayang, Reza gak lulus. Tapi ini belum fixed. Wish Reza's gonna be "Selamat :)"...

Oh My God: Finally, I'm Going to Study Abroad!!!

Finally, I passed the test! YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

God, thanks... Thanks for all your kindness... :)

This Thing : Over and Over Again

Ah, I don't know how many times I got this tag and how many times I ignored it, but this time, just for NADA, I wrote this tag.

RULES

1. Post this rule.

2. Write 11 things about yourself.

3. Answer the question the tagger set to you.

4. Create 11 new question for those you want to tag.

5.  Choose 11 bloggers to be tagged and link them to the post.

6. You are not allowed to tag back.

11 Things about Me

• Moeslim
• Indonesian, and I'm proud to be it
• Female
• Study in Senior High School Number 17 Palembang now
• Want to go to Finland, and US
• Had many problems
• I'm gonna miss my dorm
• My BUGEMM haven't finished yet.
• Fall in love with someone now
• Is it 11? Well, when I wrote it, I was taking semester exam and I didn't studied anything 'cause writing this tag (Nada, gotcha!)
• Regret the result of the election of South Sumatera Governor

NADA's QUESTION 

1. What's your favorite movie? Why do you love it? 

I love Les Miserables. It musical, the story's good, and the songs are perfect. 

2. Describe your life in 360 words. 

Wtf. I don't like essay. 

3. What do you think about cat? Tell me what you know about that's creature.

It's disgusting, it's stinky, and it's miserable. 

4. Choose one. Dark or Bright. Short or Long. Big or Small. One or Two. Tell me the reason 

Bright. Long. Big. Two. Idk the reason. 

5. What do you think about the ballerina? 

They're cute, beautiful, talented, such a perfect girl.

6. How important teacher for you? 

It's crucial. You can't be a truly person without them. 

7. Do you like drawing? 

Nada, don't try to mock me. It's absolutely no.

8. Art or Science? Why?

Both of them, because it balancing our life. 

9. Do you have enemy(ies)? Who?

No, everyone are friend for me. 

10. Korean, Japan, or Spanyol? Why? 

Japan. Idk, it's just better than other. 

11. Is there something that you wanna confess to someone? What's that? 

I know what you mean, Nada. Well, you'll get what you want. I fall in love with you, someone, and I hope you feel the same. 

My question

1. What's your hoodoo moment? 

2. Do you have a big obsession? what? 

3. What do you think about K-Pop? Is it disgusting? 

4. Do you know 7 deadly sins? Are you did one of them? 

5. What your faculty wanna be? 

6. Well, describe yourself in 360 words. 

7. Do you know AFS? What do you think about it? 

8. Tell me about your last/current relationship. 

9. Google ENGLITT and tell me your opinion about it. 

10. What your twitter u-name? Follow me on @Kuntilalatip. 

11. Which one the best? Loving someone but not being loved, or being loved but not loving the one who loves you? Why? 

Well, enjoy the question and keep visit my blog. Message me when your answer were done.

What a Good Thing!

Alhamdulillah Ya Allah, Ya Rabbi... You've made me so happy for it. I've been waiting and praying for it. I want to be the one, Ya Allah... Ridhoi aku Ya Allah... Let me proof it to my mom that I can do it... I can do it, Ya Allah... But if it is not the way you're blessed on, show me the way you were destined for me, which make me happy in the world and afterlife. Amin.

Such A Happy Things!

Don't laugh too much if you don't want too much tears-Anonymous

I did pass the selection!
But there's something that always be a blocking wall for me
And my dream.

My mom's word.


That moment was held when we were buying food in an outlet. When I told her I've passed the test, she shows unhappy face. When I asked her, she doesn't happy that I passed the test. She said it wasting time, and the destination country is so far. I can't believe my ears. I wished I was daydreaming. But no, it's real. Huh, such a thing!

Maaf-Maafan SS: A wonder-awful event.

"Kami doakan, Lathifah lulus AFS...AMIN!!!"-Kak Liza Anggraini, XII PSIA 5

LOL.
Actually it was so long ago, on April 4th.
I was verified my AFS participant number, and I putted in on my table, the first row, exactly in front of the teacher's desk.

Then all of the super senior in XII PSIA 5 (Susu Bima, Susi Sukarni Bersama IA 5) came to our class and standing in front of class. Kak Haris, saw my AFS participant number and told about it to his friends. Then, suddenly, Kak Liza (my chair mate in UTS) said that Susu Bima prayed for me to passed the test of AFS/YES Exchange Program. How happy I was!


Thanks, Susu Bima! :)

The Pieces of Those Memories... Oh Elementry!

When I Was Your Man-Bruno Mars

Same bed, but it feels just a little bit bigger now
Our song on the radio, but it don't sound the same
When our friends talk about you all that it does is just tear me down
Cause my heart breaks a little when I hear your name
And it all just sound like uh, uh, uh

Hmmm too young, too dumb to realize
That I should have bought you flowers and held your hand
Should have gave you all my hours when I had the chance
Take you to every party cause all you wanted to do was dance
Now my baby is dancing, but she's dancing with another man.

My pride, my ego, my needs and my selfish ways
Caused a good strong woman like you to walk out my life
Now I never, never get to clean up the mess I made
And it haunts me every time I close my eyes
It all just sounds like uh, uh, uh, uh

Too young, too dumb to realize
That I should have bought you flowers and held your hand
Should have gave all my hours when I had the chance
Take you to every party cause all you wanted to do was dance
Now my baby is dancing, but she's dancing with another man.

Although it hurts I'll be the first to say that I was wrong
Oh, I know I'm probably much too late
To try and apologize for my mistakes
But I just want you to know
I hope he buys you flowers, I hope he holds your hand
Give you all his hours when he has the chance
Take you to every party cause I remember how much you loved to dance
Do all the things I should have done when I was your man!
Do all the things I should have done when I was your man!

Haiku : What am I?

A fragile clear glassOnce broke never be the sameIt smiling in sad

well

Orang kayak gitu gak usah dilayanin, cuekin aja. Kalo dilayanin, artinya kita sama aja kayak dia. Doa aja abis sholat, sebut namanya, terus doa "Ya Allah, bukalah pintu hati (nama orangnya) agar dia sadar apa yang telah terjadi sebenarnya. Bukakanlah pintu kebenaran untuknya..."- My Grandma.

 I wish it could. I wish she will know the truth, realize what was happened, and forget this problem. Yeah, I just called my grandma, she is in Bogor now. I don't know when will she go home. I miss her so much. Since she went Umrah, I lost a person that always hear my stories, give me the wise words, giving me money (*grin*), and all the good she gave to me. I MISS HER.

I found out the special things in a heavy rain. I just realize that, in my age now, the people changed. The good  people, some of them turned bad. Yeah, some of them, who I thought they were kind, turned back and be mad at me, without a clear reason. The bad persons (I said it 'persons', not 'people', their number is not much), who I thought they were not good, turned good. They started to greets me, talked to me, and others which make me think "They treated me good, don't they?". It's so confusing to think how could it come.

It's all fair. Just like what my mom said, "Don't be too close to a good person, and don't be too rude to the bad one." The philosophy of life is 'change'. Change, from an embrio to a perfect baby, then turned to happy kid, next change to a fragile teenager, turned again to be a mature adult, and finally you changed to an elderly. If a person doesn't 'change', they were never survive. And that the right thing, change. I have to change every thing inside myself to survive, based on my environment now.

But sometimes, it's hard to changed yourself to make a good condition for fit yourself in your environment. And that's the challenge. We have to be strong to face it. And that's why God give us those problems. We gonna be stronger if we could face it.

I'm not an oracle freak, but my fortune cookie knows me well.

Only Hope-Mandy Moore.

There's no doubt for me to prayed so many times a day, going far away, if you were mine. I promised, I'll be better.

There's a song that's inside of my soul. 
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again 
I'm awake in the infinite cold. 
But you sing to me over and over and over again. 

So, I lay my head back down. 
And I lift my hands and pray 
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours 
I know now you're my only hope. 

Sing to me the song of the stars. 
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again. 
When it feels like my dreams are so far 
Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again. 

So I lay my head back down. 
And I lift my hands and pray 
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours 
I know now, you're my only hope. 

I give you my destiny. 
I'm giving you all of me. 
I want your symphony, singing in all that I am 
At the top of my lungs, I'm giving it back. 

So I lay my head back down. 
And I lift my hands and pray 
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours 
I pray, to be only yours 
I know now you're my only hope. 

hmmmmm, hmmmmm, oooooh. 

The Truth.

"I did not think Hayley’s version told the whole story, at least from our perspective and hopefully this will explain a bit about why we are leaving."-Josh Farro on joshnfarro.blogspot.com. 

It just the same with me. But it would be "I didn't think what they think happened in reality, at least from my perspective and I hope what I'm gonna write now will explain everything." Yeah, I wanna explain everything happened in the past, in this week exactly. I'm confirm it firmly that I won't blame anyone here, I won't proof that I'm right too, but I just want to explain it clearly, without emotion. There's no one right and there's no one wrong in this case. Don't brought your emotion please.


Okay, I just want to go directly to the point. I've ever tweet this :

And Fikram responded about it (I can't found the tweet, but I'm not trying to tell lies!). He never mentioned the name, and in the beginning I don't know who is the B*TCH he was meant about. 

As time goes on and their problem goes up, I expected it as Emil. Then everything was seems clear to me when Ader and I sharing our stories in mosque. Ader said Fikram and Fahrezi ever told about a mock for Emil, and I think that mock was that word, B*TCH, and my will is : I WANT TO MAKE IT CLEAR, BETWEEN "THE PEOPLE AROUND YOGA" AND EMIL, BY SAYING THE TRUTH TO EMIL.

I knew it was my fault to said the mock to Emil before clarifying it, but the reason I told it is not to make Fikram's image bad, but I just want to make Emil realize : the boys are careless, if the boys has 'labelled' you with something such as that, it means there was something wrong about you. And I was said it perfectly to Emil, without any word passed.

But unexpectedly, Emil accepted as a work to humbled her pride, and she was totally angry with it. And that's all. About Fahrezi, I just knew it from Ader, I swear!

That's what I'm going to say when Fitri asked me the truth. Sorry I forgot whether it was a tweet or DM, sorry I was saying it as a DM, sorry if my good will make your image bad. I just saying the truth.

Sorry, I realized that I shouldn't have told her the mocks. Sorry I was wrong to expect that Emil will accepted it as a reflection. Sorry I can't explain it clearly to Fitri and Sinta, sorry to makes you angry, sorry for my misunderstanding about the B*TCH, sorry for makes all you cry, sorry for the mock you were received, but for your information, I got it too. Me, not my class.

Sorry for everything. Sorry for my low-intelligence brain who was wrong to translate the tweet. SORRY, if you're still hate me, it's okay. I just want to tell the truth. Thank you if you're forgive me. This is my complete explanation.

Yeah, it's my explanation.